Today this idea has stuck with me. For a while now I have been content with being single and that has never been something I have been alright with before. I could not figure out why. For all of high school and even when I first got to college I could not imagine being alone. Thus I had one good relationship that was surrounded by countless meaningless ones for the simple fact I didn't want to be alone.
Now I wonder why everyone is so eager to jump into a relationship. I understand that dating is "fun" but it is also to find someone to spend the rest of your life with. Now although once you find the "right" person the relationship is very important until then there are many things that I now believe come before dating. One of them being a relationship with god.
I found that finding a way back to god has taken away my "want" to find a relationship. I would rather wait and find the right girl. Instead of just jumping freely into something because someone else is single and wants to just have fun. I would like to hold out for a meaningful relationship. There is no point in wasting my time tied up in something else that is not truly meaningful to me.
So I do credit Dylan for this. Although it was something I was already practicing I have now mentally come to terms as to why I don't really feel like searching for a date and would rather for the right girl to fall into my life. How I am starting to feel closer to god and not as alone. How I feel a little closer to my friends. In all I feel like I am on the right path.

Don't feel bad about wanting to be with someone without knowing why-- it's human nature to long for companionship. Yet at the same time, the random dating does have to stop eventually (and it's cool that you've realized that). The thing about dating is that it is kind of 'practicing' for marriage but at the same time it's practicing divorce every time there's a break up, so it's up to the individual to judge that aspect of it.
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